There was no right way to start into this, and Jack knew that now more than ever. The back of his mind flashed to the thought that he was asking something that his team asked of him all the time, the truth about just who he was... about what he was even doing in this world still. Death barely a shadow on his record, and they all knew that now... but that was where the line was drawn for them.
Adam knew though, more than his team did at least, and now he wondered how much he could get Adam to tell him now, and what right he had to any of it.
He left his hand to Adam, feeling that added grip against fingers for a moment, and he knew it wasn't going to be the simplest thing.
"Everyday my team ends up with more reasons to either doubt or trust me, and every day I have to protect them from the truth, because me being just another guy without a past keeps them safer in some backwards way. There's no answer I can give them that won't put doubt into their eyes of just what I am to them. I'm their leader, and they don't want to hear about how I started out a coward, leading people on, tricking them out of things that I had no right to. Going in and altering time, changing things because it was something handed to me on a slip of paper. That was who I was, the man I am today has seen so much more than all of that, and through it all I've found my own path. I know," Jack paused meeting his eyes trying to truly express that he was going to try and listen with as open a mind as he'd want for himself, "I've known that things are far too complicated for you to just tell me the truth, but I want you to at least trust that you have my hand, because if you can't trust that simple gesture then I know you can't trust me with the answers, and I don't want something that you just give to me to placate and stop the questions."
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Date: 2007-12-07 07:01 am (UTC)Adam knew though, more than his team did at least, and now he wondered how much he could get Adam to tell him now, and what right he had to any of it.
He left his hand to Adam, feeling that added grip against fingers for a moment, and he knew it wasn't going to be the simplest thing.
"Everyday my team ends up with more reasons to either doubt or trust me, and every day I have to protect them from the truth, because me being just another guy without a past keeps them safer in some backwards way. There's no answer I can give them that won't put doubt into their eyes of just what I am to them. I'm their leader, and they don't want to hear about how I started out a coward, leading people on, tricking them out of things that I had no right to. Going in and altering time, changing things because it was something handed to me on a slip of paper. That was who I was, the man I am today has seen so much more than all of that, and through it all I've found my own path. I know," Jack paused meeting his eyes trying to truly express that he was going to try and listen with as open a mind as he'd want for himself, "I've known that things are far too complicated for you to just tell me the truth, but I want you to at least trust that you have my hand, because if you can't trust that simple gesture then I know you can't trust me with the answers, and I don't want something that you just give to me to placate and stop the questions."