Each touch was a comfort, and he let the tension ease very slowly, taking measured breaths. All those years of training normally helped him stay calm, Zen. It was a definite sign of how rattled he was that he had to find the breath, find that quiet place in his mind. That he'd admitted to the fear, to the weakness...it wasn't like him, and that in itself sort of added to the fear.
He slid his arm around Jack's waist, holding as much as he was being held. At least then it wasn't like he was curled up like a shaking child he'd never really been. It was two of them, curled close together, snuggling, or something.
His eyes flickered open at the kiss, then closed again as he reciprocated, pressing a kiss to Jack's shoulder in acknowledgment. Shivering a little, he tried to focus in on Jack's heart and the breaths they both took. Steady, even, they were there and real and something that hadn't been in that tomb.
"If I sleep...the few times I've drifted off...I keep dreaming I'm back there. I hear myself screaming. I can feel it close around me. When I can stay here, and now, awake and in the present...it's better. Almost normal, whatever normal is anymore. I don't think I know anymore."
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Date: 2007-12-11 07:06 am (UTC)He slid his arm around Jack's waist, holding as much as he was being held. At least then it wasn't like he was curled up like a shaking child he'd never really been. It was two of them, curled close together, snuggling, or something.
His eyes flickered open at the kiss, then closed again as he reciprocated, pressing a kiss to Jack's shoulder in acknowledgment. Shivering a little, he tried to focus in on Jack's heart and the breaths they both took. Steady, even, they were there and real and something that hadn't been in that tomb.
"If I sleep...the few times I've drifted off...I keep dreaming I'm back there. I hear myself screaming. I can feel it close around me. When I can stay here, and now, awake and in the present...it's better. Almost normal, whatever normal is anymore. I don't think I know anymore."