[EcM] December - Holiday Memories
Dec. 5th, 2007 06:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
onlysayinghelloReally my first holiday memory feels so far away right now that I can't even remember what my father's face looked like when he smiled. He hasn't been born... my family tree is probably barely a seed at this point so instead of going with my actual childhood, I'm going with the earliest date in the timeline I can stretch to. When you wake up not entirely dead and then make a one shot attempt to rejoin the party you thought you'd be with for a while, and end up in Cardiff 1869? It tends to change your priorities a bit. Now the thing of it is, that the Doctor was in Cardiff around this time. Not one that would actually have known me at all, but he was there. Rose and him... I saw them in Cardiff. Christmas Eve and I was trying to still track down the Doctor because I figured the Time Vortex Manipulator had sent me there for a reason. It had to be tuned to the Doctor, and it had found him... just the wrong one. Sort of.
So there they were, a few feet away from me just walking through the town. Rose, smiling up at the falling snow watching her feet press into the powder on the ground, and the Doctor. Leather Jacket... that same scowl that most times was only a split second away from a grin of such pride. It was them and I really wanted to think that maybe they'd just gone onto their next stop, but there was something in Rose's eyes that I wasn't going to forget... it was still new to her. That wonderment, and the smile... she hadn't seen the Daleks threaten humanity, she hadn't watched a small child change everyone in a small town during the London Blitz.
I couldn't go up to them now, what use would it have been? To rush up to two people that didn't know me from Adam, and ask questions of things that hadn't even happened yet. It was the best present to see them again... happy... before they had ever ran into me. At the same time it was the worst present because there they were, just a few yards off and I could have warned them... told them about what was going to happen... but I knew I couldn't. Just like the Doctor couldn't have warned us the day at the dance hall... that the mission to Satellite Five would be our last together.
It was my very first Christmas... if you look at my timeline as a straight line, but most everyone knows that with me you just can't do that. Still 1869 seems pretty early to me.
So there they were, a few feet away from me just walking through the town. Rose, smiling up at the falling snow watching her feet press into the powder on the ground, and the Doctor. Leather Jacket... that same scowl that most times was only a split second away from a grin of such pride. It was them and I really wanted to think that maybe they'd just gone onto their next stop, but there was something in Rose's eyes that I wasn't going to forget... it was still new to her. That wonderment, and the smile... she hadn't seen the Daleks threaten humanity, she hadn't watched a small child change everyone in a small town during the London Blitz.
I couldn't go up to them now, what use would it have been? To rush up to two people that didn't know me from Adam, and ask questions of things that hadn't even happened yet. It was the best present to see them again... happy... before they had ever ran into me. At the same time it was the worst present because there they were, just a few yards off and I could have warned them... told them about what was going to happen... but I knew I couldn't. Just like the Doctor couldn't have warned us the day at the dance hall... that the mission to Satellite Five would be our last together.
It was my very first Christmas... if you look at my timeline as a straight line, but most everyone knows that with me you just can't do that. Still 1869 seems pretty early to me.
