It was overwhelming knowing that everything had gotten so strained, and not even just between the two of them but with everything that had happened for Adam. Questions unanswered almost felt secondary to the fact that the man that Jack had welcomed into his home was feeling so lost in a world that Jack felt he almost didn't belong in. His food, what little he had managed to eat was sitting in the pit of his stomach like a rock, and it wasn't going to get any better by adding more to it.
Exhaling deeply and pouring himself another shot of vodka he swallowed it quickly not even letting the burn linger anywhere in his throat before it hit his stomach. He was still leaning forward a bit but he could feel Adam shifting slightly closer and his peripheral picked up the site of an offering of a hand against the cushion and it tugged at Jack, letting that side of him spark to life again, the one that didn't want the answers, that didn't want to know why it was all Adam thought he could do to save the world... he just wanted to forget that he'd heard the words, and go back to just having one person that actually knew how it felt to leave everyone behind.
Jack glanced over to Adam, seeing his head resting back, eyes shut trying to stave off whatever anxiety was no doubt still building up inside of him. Jack shifted on the couch, letting is body face Adam, as he took his hand into his. He was here, he had stated that very matter of factly that he was there for Adam, and there for whatever it was going to take to understand. Now he wanted to just let them rest, and let Adam know that the offer of time had no expiration on it, and if it took them fifty years to sort through it, he'd welcome those fifty years. Which in his own mind even sounded like rushing things, but in another sense he couldn't help but feel like he'd been living all these years going from one to the next only because he knew if he stayed too long... he'd have to say goodbye.
Now goodbye had an option of never having to be, and it made Jack suddenly more aware of so much more about just what he really had to offer to someone else, if he could just be that sort of man. Jack tugged gently on Adam's arm pulling him against his chest, letting him settle in his arms, as he placed a kiss atop his head, "You look as tired as I am sure both of us feel. This can wait, all of it..." Jack stated as he let his hand stroke though Adam's hair, "As much as I want to know, right now I don't need to know anything except that you're here."
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Date: 2007-12-10 09:38 am (UTC)Exhaling deeply and pouring himself another shot of vodka he swallowed it quickly not even letting the burn linger anywhere in his throat before it hit his stomach. He was still leaning forward a bit but he could feel Adam shifting slightly closer and his peripheral picked up the site of an offering of a hand against the cushion and it tugged at Jack, letting that side of him spark to life again, the one that didn't want the answers, that didn't want to know why it was all Adam thought he could do to save the world... he just wanted to forget that he'd heard the words, and go back to just having one person that actually knew how it felt to leave everyone behind.
Jack glanced over to Adam, seeing his head resting back, eyes shut trying to stave off whatever anxiety was no doubt still building up inside of him. Jack shifted on the couch, letting is body face Adam, as he took his hand into his. He was here, he had stated that very matter of factly that he was there for Adam, and there for whatever it was going to take to understand. Now he wanted to just let them rest, and let Adam know that the offer of time had no expiration on it, and if it took them fifty years to sort through it, he'd welcome those fifty years. Which in his own mind even sounded like rushing things, but in another sense he couldn't help but feel like he'd been living all these years going from one to the next only because he knew if he stayed too long... he'd have to say goodbye.
Now goodbye had an option of never having to be, and it made Jack suddenly more aware of so much more about just what he really had to offer to someone else, if he could just be that sort of man. Jack tugged gently on Adam's arm pulling him against his chest, letting him settle in his arms, as he placed a kiss atop his head, "You look as tired as I am sure both of us feel. This can wait, all of it..." Jack stated as he let his hand stroke though Adam's hair, "As much as I want to know, right now I don't need to know anything except that you're here."